memories of you last august

to huggle
to snuggle
to hold
a warmth impossible without love.
i cherish the moments
we shared in four-cornered room
the transparent window car
where night or day our eyes would gaze
in rhythm
then our hands would travel to touch the fingertips.
what happens next
unbelievably exciting, like magic couldn't be uncleared
all i know
ur foolish voice
and simple "hello"
could start a day
a whole day, actually
with a genuine smile.
i cherish our love
everlasting .

missing you

Unhappy . i cannot feel you suddenly in this silence.
cold and alone, my feelings cant reach you.
maybe we should hold hands in our imagination or kiss the mirror again. but who would want to touch a cold crystal
or kiss a reflection we sometimes don't want to see?

Silence is enough for a moment of peace
make some noise
i want to see the glitter in your smile
the energy in your laughter
the foolishness in your touches.

Bring back
the heart that once mine.

Losing a Friend

Sunlight, you bury me with your smile
so bright, i never wanted this sight
Blinding,
exhausting,
cant u see im breaking?
shattered, strawberry glasses,
why is it easier for you to go...

Dont turn your back, i cannot see your face
how will u see my hands
reaching for you desperately?

It may feel strange
stirring, emotions, flowing,
yet you're so cunning.

i can feel you feel it too
i can see you cant deny, but
how can you ignore?

Turn to me, don't hold back
Nana, you are a doll on the pedestal to me.
don't turn away, look behind
your other self is waiting for you...

- Nessy to NANA anime -

troubled mind

Broken,
you called me in my sleepless night
didn't realize this fright
seamless fear
cut through me like a knife.
All I wanted,
i want to be saved tonight, i want to be
out of this dark hole, tonight
why come, don't ask
cant you hear the tremble
the heartbeat resonates,
crime in double
i whimpered in the dark
cant say more
my conscience cant reach the arc
just save me tonight...

- Nessy to NANA's anime -

your lies

loneliness,
i wait for love
its warmth i miss.
hair that sweeps away
the lies that you make,
the heat it stings
leaves an agony later on.

so why dont you tell me,
tell me, tell me
unbind me from your sweet lies
truth, is it that easy to deny
when your fingertips run through
my hair straightens up,
cant tell my despair.
when i curl and i reach
my hand hugging you so tight,
can you tell, oh can you tell,
that i don't care for your lies?

again, just tell me, tell me tell me
why do u love to hurt me
why cant you leave me , leave me alone?
i am broken
but
i accept your disguise...

- N e s s y to NANA anime -